Lonely

haha..tajuk nk klakar je...actually ape yg tajuk nyatakn tu btolla...boring~ aku dh xtau ape nk jd dgn aq ni, semenjak duamenjak ni aq ada perasaan malas nk take care of evrthng...ingnorance, aq rasa down pon ade. somebody ckp if that act keep on ur mind n enduring in urself u'll be ice princess, so u'll finish fa!...muke beku, malas nk amik tahu lg...if that thng come so, thats relief! haha, coz i hop that way too. malas nk ckp byk la senang kata. org yg terbaca semua ni jgn anggap aq ni ngada2 atau whtsoevr la, i hav my own opinion nk judge diri sndr, aq dh fikir this is the best fragrant way buat masa skrng. sorry jgk sape yg terkene n terasa nnti. sbbnya:
firstly, aku ade kwn yg aq knl since form1. kitrng bole kata rpt jgk n now we're breaking up our friendship bcoz of misunderstanding dgn bdk yg dia baru setahun knl. xsngkala dia bole percaya bdk tu dr aq! kalau kau baca, sorry for say, aq kecik hati sgt dgn kau n xbole terima semua tu. mmg kite org islam, tp kita xpatut nk bangkitkn hal lama sbgi alasan. kalau masalah tu between u all jgn cmpurkn org lain. n muslim sejati x b'doa dihdpn org rmi, sprti meminta simpati, ko pon tau an sbb ape? riak! k la hati budi org lain2 an? i've done as muslim, i've forgive whtevr she done n ask for apologize. n kwn lama aq tu aq dh msg terangkn semua tp dia x bls. so, aq dh selesaikn r an? tp nk brckp atau bkwn like old time mngkn dh xmmpu. mknla semua kebijaksaan korang tu smpi kenyang. sehebat tupai lompat jatuh jua ke tanah. even kwn bek aq pon xdek ckp ape2, no backing up that time n now she treat my anemy as her best friend. ok skrng ni side aq, aq xdek mastermind mastura tuk benci sape2. just considerate la skit beb, aq xsuke dia. aq tau kalau aq xdpt dtg skola bdk tu la yg kau cari. skrng baru aq fhm makna KWN MKN KWN. aq kecewa tp buat bodoh je. sometime aq rasa nk bg bdk tu penumbuk je. smpi mcm tu skali sakit ati aq! first time aq marah org perempuan. sbnrnya skrng aq mne de kwn kt skola aq tu...dunia fana ni x sentiasa menang kt kau je. aq juga percaya pepatah diam ubi brisi. haha...kau fhm an? kalo ko buat hal lg, siap kaw! ingt aq takut ha perempuan? ngadula semua org dlm dunia...aq xtakut!
second, b'czof result aq x naik tuk mid year, i've make a hard decision to me. T.T. ok 7darjahcelsius, bye2 for several month. i've take temporary leave. hey hey tp aq still keep doing self training k. senior yg baek totak? hehe
third, im quitting tuition. aq rsa sbbkn tusyen aq pnyr perasaan malas n penat meningkt dgn drastiknya thn ni. k la aq motivation my self, dulu aq bole bljr dgn elok without tuition pon awat skrng xleh? so, aq kene rajin je pasni. aq nk kene fokus kt spm n penulisan. form teacher aq pon ckp tusyen nnti nk kene bersiap2 lg dh amik masa, tunggu ape2 ke..byk masa dibuang.
forth, kerunsingan dh selesaikn dh.
as conclusion, aq dh fkr masa dpn ape aq nk buat pas spm, tu smngt naik balik. kakak aq ckp, kerajaan melabur berjuta ringgit nk buka studio ice skating. so, aq berminat pulak. aq tgk bdk tu sebaya aq pon, mulanya dia xtau lngsng skating tp dia boleh main dgn hebatnya hanya dgn belatih selama dua bulan aje.
lps spm, nnti aq smbng balik belatih utk drumline...weeha~ yg best, aq dh ade kayu drum sndr baru beli. hahaha!!! misi 7oC akn bjln sprt yg dirncng slps aq exm nnti...woo bestnya. beside 7oC baru ni aku cadangkn buat kelainan skit. each member should learn the instrument. i would choose keyboard/piano. yg lain korang pilih la sndr. aq nk violin tp tkut lama2 nnti sakit. i hop evry mmbr could improve their english comunication, america pon jdla. aq bkn xbg dorng bljr bahasa lain tp clearkn dulu english aq pon tgh bljr2 ckp british u....>.< like my english teacher. aq suke style org camtu ckp, stylo. haha makin gedik aq berckp nnti... buek! tp susah nk follow comunication dorang. kejang lidah aq. nk tau cara british? tgk r harry potter.
finally aq hrp sgt dpt semua tu pas hbs tmtkn exm besaw nnti.

p/s: sori semua include kwn rpt aq yg sorang tu. kau baik tp aq xbole baik sgt dgn semua org. aq sdr aq mkin selfish skrng. aq ckp skali kalo x dgr i don't want to repeat. aq buat camtu sbb nk suh ko ade sifat kepimpinan dgn junior nnti. i not that bad just sly...haha...xdek r...k r...mimi, mas n ara.......gudluck for 2011's spm...T.T
my succes begin now....10A's.....amin...
- semua org buat kesilapan, kte patut lupakn kesalahan org kalau dia dh mntk maaf. in that case, aq dh xpndi maafkn org skrng. btol ape abg aq ckp. aq ni jenis berdendam. baru aq pasan. to my old friends, ego aq dh tebal skrng dgn korang. haha...n kwn yg slalu dgn aq tu, muhasabah diri, ingt balik kt mne semua berpunca. buat tindkn yg trbaik...lg satu. jgn buat sesuatu tuduhan tnpa asl asul. kenyataan yg tiada bukti adalah fitnah.

thts y aq setuju join grup yg brtemakn musim sejuk...sejuk mata tgk